Loyalty

I think my time is mostly wasted. School and exercise are obviously not, but I spend the majority of my time watching TV or isolating. Also Reddit. Hours and hours of Reddit. To me, loyalty means being able to rely on someone when you need them. Knowing that they will be there as soon as you ask, and just knowing you can trust them no matter what the situation is come with loyalty. I feel most loyal to my close friends I've known for years and my boyfriend. I don't think you can measure happiness at all, because as the guy in the video said, how do you measure something that is fleating"? The majority of us dont spend the majority of our time happy. What matters to me is trying to stay positive overall and not slip into some kind of state it would be hard to get out of. Looking towards something else is what keeps me positive.

Leaders

One person who is an example of a great leader is Admiral Adama from Battlestar Galactica. Even though the fleet was facing hard times and should have had little to no hope of ever finding earth he drove them on and rallied them and made them live and work one day at a time. He inspired them through giving them rousing speeches and hope of one day finding a home, he also worked very hard and sacrificed everything for what he believed. I think it contributed because he really believed in a better life for the crew and himself. I think you are more successful at doing things you believe in because it drives you to work harder. I can be very apathetic about school but when we are doing something I really enjoy or am genuinely interested, and I don't just try and skate through.

swimmer

The video we watched about the swimmer, Nina, was pretty amazing. She just has a determination and stamina that most of will always lack. She seams to really be doing something she loves too. I guess you would have to to be practicing that many hours a day. I admire her passion. You have to think though about the situations that she begins swimming, the first and the second time. Swimming away from the pain of being molested. Swimming away from the pain of her mothers death and a fear of getting old. Maybe what she needs is not a swim from florida to cuba, but a good therapist. Nevertheless she is a cool lady and I hope I look that good at 60 years old. Yes she has clearly failed. she lost all of the money people have given her and is probably really disappointed and feels unfulfilled. Yes, i felt it was my time at one point. Im not going to go into details but if my plans had actually gone through i probably wouldn't be here right now. It felt right but I fucked it up. "The journey is the destination" means that its just as fulfilling as actually completing something.

inspiration

I an not inspired very easily. It has to be someone i can relate to. or someone just completely turning their life around. someone who pulled out of something like addiction or poverty. i feel like inspiration is short lived. unlike that one speech by steve jobs we just listened to, have you ever really heard of someone who was really so inspired by one thing that they read or heard that they were actually able to make a drastic life change? Listening to things like that might make you feel warm and fuzzy but its over in a second and people tend to go on with their lives like the did before. maybe go to a gym for a weak but nothing really changes. inspiration is bullshit.

"did you know"

My reaction to "did you know" was that the world will soon be overtaken by robots. its inevitable. this video has also made me face how entirely replaceable we are as individuals. Once we have failed there will be someone just like you only better to take your place. life is futile,

Motivation

Motivation comes much more easily for me when something is new. the beginning of the new school year, the first day of my new internship. Motivation is easier to grasp when something is exciting and challenging and genuinely interests me. I think successes is partially based on the feeling you get after you complete something. a mix of pride and happiness and maybe a little exhaustion. It is also based on what people can see from seeing your accomplishment and how they judge it. I think autonomy would only make my projects better if it was something i really cared about. Otherwise i would get distracted and use autonomy as an excuse to not do my work. sometimes even when i am interested i need someone to be there to watch what i'm doing just because i am lazy. i prefer to do the minimum amount of work possible. i need accountability to complete things.